"How many obstacles does one face when trying to transcend to another plane of existence?"
"Two, but actually three."
"What are they?"
"The survival instinct is the first and the strongest. It ensures that one's survival is always the first priority. Here I would like to make two points immediately. The first is that when a parent prioritises the survival of his/her child at the expense of himself/herself, he/she is technically ensuring his/her own survival. The second is that suicide does not automatically elevate anyone to another plane of existence, it only eliminates the possibility of it in that reality."
"What does this mean?"
"A suicide can have many causes. Because the average person has a low perspective, they see it as an escape from hardship, that is, the mind overriding this most powerful driving force for a reason that certain life situations bring. This is true in the majority of cases, but those who get beyond the belief in 'one reality' encounter other aspects. For ascension in many cases also means leaving the lower worlds."
"Have you?"
"Not all of them, and it didn't prove to be a bad move when I realised that the Upper Worlds are not necessarily what one believes them to be. If you can find an ideal environment to maintain your presence in, you can return."
"What does it mean that they are not necessarily?"
"The higher you go, the more the private sphere disappears and the world becomes collective."
"But that's a good thing, isn't it?"
"Communism and fascism are collective societies."
"Can democracy not exist on a collective level?"
"That's the struggle I'm fighting. Democracy can be collective, but you have to organise the Unity differently. Dictatorship eliminates diversity, and here you can understand what it brings, because where everything is the same, boredom rears its head. But it works only in a developed environment, otherwise dictatorship can come to power by promising the opposite, as happened in Hungary, or by breaking its rules, as happened in Rome. As a point of interest, I reiterate my view, which is well beyond its time, that these are all the result of celestial interventions aimed at taking over the Earth."
"What is Heaven's purpose in this?"
"Democracy, dissent, is systematically abnormal in an absolute dictatorship where even the slightest criticism is tantamount to questioning the power of the boss."
"What is your purpose?"
"At first, to respect the status quo, but after the intrigues and attacks on me, I got a bit freaked out. But that was not the reason for the turnaround. But as I got into the picture, I realised that there was a need for change brewing deep down inside, and that it had to be done very cleverly, lest an explosion plunge the galaxy into centuries of chaos. One might ask by what right, but returning from even higher up has that feel. After 20 years of meditation, I would of course prefer to relax and party, but it is not the first time that I have seen this as irresponsible."
"How to overcome the instinct to stay alive."
"By developing the mind. There is no other way. It's not a matter of giving it up disguised as courage, because that equals cowardice. It's about overcoming fear within yourself."
"How do you know you have succeeded?"
"You don't fail along the way. Which will not be an easy road and you will face many challenges where it is easy to get scared."
"What is the second obstacle?"
"The instinct for species preservation, which has one irresistible feature, the issue of mate choice. It is very difficult to get through that, it is haunted by feelings and desires."
"How did you do it?"
"If I miss out on this celestial help, it's with a lot of luck and a lot of failure. Later I realized I was in a grey area. I was neither handsome nor bad looking and in moments of danger, someone better than me could always arrive. This is, by the way, an extremely difficult situation from a celestial point of view, because it has to be resolved in such a way that, on the one hand, one's personality is not distorted by failures and, on the other hand, one is not subject to many constraints."
"What are these constraints?"
"An energetic imprint, the source of which is people from the past with whom you have had affairs. I'm not just talking about sex, because that only matters on the physical plane. Here, fantasizing with emotional charge is also a big factor as you move up with your consciousness. It's a web that is very difficult to get rid of because it doesn't only have negative characteristics."
"What kind of net is it?"
"It's a network where energies come and go and the elimination of these energies always triggers some kind of reaction somewhere. Let's say in your youth you meet an energy vampire who builds plans on your energies that are threatened if you eliminate it. What if you don't meet one, but many and what if you have done the same to others?"
"You said there were two, but there are actually three."
"That's typical of this world, because you can fuck for more than just species preservation. The more people you fuck, the harder it is to go independent and the easier it is to get a collective position. Because it's also a gamble, because you don't know when you're young who will become a valuable source of energy later on."
"How did that happen for you?"
"I've had girlfriends, I've been a whores, but I didn't cross the line that would have prevented me from having them later. I suffered with the release of energy (and the tons of belated and desperate aliens pouring it on me) and it helped a lot when I reached 50, because my rationality got over that relationship problem."
"What about homosexuality?"
"I don't know, I've only ever been interested in women."
"How come you don't have a woman by your side?"
"Because I've never been that interested. When you're meditating, the first thing is to be calm. And a woman equals tension."
"What if, because of your return, you are confronted by a woman who could catch you?"
"It gets harder and harder over time and on a different level than the average woman would think. But I can deal with the problem when I am confronted with it."
"What is there to get through?"
"The fear of loneliness, which may be underpinned by a fear of boredom. But as you discover the inner world and get used to it, you realise its beauty and the question arises, why would you want to upset this idyllic state. That was the theory. The test of practice is how well you hold them when you see those asses and tits."